Ever since I was a little girl, I have wanted to be a mom. When I was really little, that was all I wanted.
I didn't get married until I was 27 years old. So I decided on . . . other things . . . that I wanted too. But most of all, I still wanted to be a mom.
Soon after we were married, we decided to stop using birth control. I thought that this would immediately result in having a baby.
A little over two years later, and with the help of a doctor and in vitro fertilization, we finally had Davis.
After he was born, we did not go on any sort of birth control. The hope was that we would be able to have a baby without help.
We were wrong.
I had an appointment with the fertility doctor on Wednesday. Because he was sick, he was not able to make the trip from Sandy. I honestly went through times where I wondered if it was even worth it, because our plan was to do IVF in April or May, because ALL of our birthdays are in November or December, and we didn't want another one. The doctor called us on Wednesday morning and told us about all the tests that we had just done. I told him our plan to do in vitro later, and he said that he would not recommend it.
My FSH level was too high. He said that the chances that I will get pregnant are small, and the chances that I would be able to carry without a miscarriage are even smaller.
He did say, however, that he would do in vitro if we wanted to pay for it. He said that ultimately, it is not his decision whether we have a baby or not. He realizes that there is a power greater than him that will make it happen if it needs to happen.
So, we went to my parents' house. We told my mom what he said. She called my dad, and we decided to go with the in vitro, even though the doctor doesn't think it will work.
A week from tomorrow, I will start the in vitro. The medicine is ordered from England. The paperwork is signed. The whole thing is paid for (by my wonderful parents). So, here we go!
A miracle happened almost exactly 10 years ago. I am alive. We need your faith and prayers to help bring another miracle to happen too. Thank you.