Thursday, July 6, 2017

Having kids is hard

Yes. Having kids is hard. I have always wanted to be a mother. In fact, when I was in kindergarten, there was a survey done of our class, and everyone was asked what they wanted to be when they grew up. I was the only one who said I wanted to be a mom.
But I think that, no matter what, having kids is hard. Whether it's the conception, the pregnancy, the birth, or the baby, having kids is hard. I don't think that I know a single woman who has had a blissful experience with all of those parts. For me, the hardest part is getting pregnant. If you know me, you know that I have to have my kids with the help of IVF (in-vitro fertilization). We have been EXTREMELY lucky to have a child with both of the previous IVF cycles we've done.
But we are not quite as lucky with this one. I had the most medicine that could be fathomed to put in the shots. I had shots every night, and blood tests and ultrasounds nearly every day as well. We felt like it was all going very well! We were able to do everything in Idaho Falls, which was a huge blessing. When I had the surgery to harvest the eggs, they got 6, which I think is more than ever before! 4 of them were fertilized the next day, which was also fabulous. The doctor himself called me on the day of the transfer, and said that two of the eggs were looking really good, so we put these guys in:
The embryologist even said they had grown since the picture! Yay! Here we are on transfer day:
We were super excited, and hoping for twins! We would find out in 2 weeks. About halfway through the two weeks, I started bleeding. Because of the experience we had last time, we thought everything would still be okay. Then, closer to the day to check, I started bleeding again. This time, I was not as hopeful. So, I was supposed to go get a blood test on Monday morning, and I had an extra home pregnancy test lying around. I was still bleeding on Sunday morning, but I decided to try it out. Here's what I got:
I was reassured, but still not completely hopeful, because I know that there HAS to be a false negative pregnancy test before the collection, because of the trigger shot. But I texted my nurse, and told her what I got, and she said that I was PREGNANT! Wa-hoo! I told my family. I got it confirmed on Monday. I told my really close friends. I was excited! But I was still bleeding . . .
I called the nurse of my OBGYN. She said that I should definitely redo the test on Wednesday, and let her know what I found. I asked my fertility nurse to redo the test, and she agreed that it needed to be redone again.
I carted my kids to the clinic for the blood test AGAIN. I keep telling them that I'm done, but it never happens. Anyway, that's when the bad news came. My HcG number was dropping. Fast. I had another test done last Friday. It's almost completely gone.

So, I was pregnant for 2-3 days. I am still trying to figure out how to deal with this. I honestly do not know what we will do to try and have another child. I honestly do not know IF we will have another child. I am very sad. I am hopeful, but starting to get realistic. Sometimes those are opposites.




Monday, July 3, 2017

Fathers' Day 2017

We have the best daddy at our house! Everyone loves our daddy. He is definitely the favorite parent.
This is one of my favorite pictures lately. Chris stayed home on a Monday to build a garden for me (because we lost our apple tree, which was fabulous!) These kids wanted to go outside with their daddy. They saw that he put on his boots and his gloves, so they got their winter boots and winter gloves and went out to "help" him. They love their daddy! Basically, Davis does whatever daddy does, and Reagan does whatever Davis does, so it's a winning combination!

For Fathers' Day, these were our celebrations:


Daddy got a new Star Wars shirt (because he needed a new one. . . like a hole in the head) and a pair of work shoes, and hugs from his kids! Because Daddy likes to smoke (the primary presidency says that Davis saying announced that in Primary when learning about the Word of Wisdom--great!), we let him make us some yummy meat for Fathers' Day too! Aren't we nice?!



Yellowstone

Another thing we love to do in the summertime is go to the cabin, and go to Yellowstone!










Summertime 2017!

We love the summer!


We love playing outside--it doesn't matter if it's the sandbox, or digging up bugs, or the hammock at our friend's house. We just love outside!
We love to go to the zoo! We especially love it if we go with our best friends!


And we love to go to the circus! Because, why not? It's so fun!

We also love to go to baseball games! This year, we remembered to take swimsuits to play in the hottub! Reagan would get in the hot tub, then get out and eat a chip, then go back and wave to me on her way back into the hot tub. It was very cute!


Summers are the best!!



Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mother's Day 2017

I think Mother's Day is a great holiday to celebrate all the women that I love so much! And I'll be honest..it's fun to have my little family celebrate me too! Even though my four-year-old ruined all the surprises (like bringing up the gift and saying, "Here's your mother's day present! It's running shoes!" and telling me right before I opened my card that, "It has Cookie Monster in it!"), I wouldn't have it any other way! I also love my mom and mother-in-law so much! Happy Mother's Day!



Friday, May 12, 2017

Prayers again!!

We are SOOOO blessed! Each time we have done in vitro, it has worked, and we have two beautiful children; one boy, and one girl! So, here we go! For the third time! Another round of IVF! This time, we are being as aggressive as possible, because we nearly didn't get Reagan last time. We are excited and nervous and every emotion wrapped in one! But we are asking for your prayers in our behalf! Thanks! We will keep you posted on what happens!
A HUGE sigh of relief happened last night . . . I talked to the nurse, and she said that we can make it so that all of my cycle can be done here in Idaho Falls. This is huge! Child care will be easier, and we won't have to travel or get a hotel or anything like that! Phew! And medicine is ordered, so it's getting REAL now!

Salt Lake half marathon/a week in Park City

We traveled to Utah on April 20th for the Salt Lake half marathon that Chris was running on the 21st. We stayed in Park City, with our good friends who got a condo for a really good deal. Chris stayed through Sunday, and then went home to work, and we stayed and played in Utah. It was a super fun week!
 Chris did the race in 2 hours and 37 minutes! Yay! He never tries to break his personal record, and some other runners said that he was their pacer in the race, because he is so consistent!
 Chris and Davis with their medals for the race.
 Some other racers gave their medals to Davis and Reagan
Our condo had a heart-shaped bathtub in it. Marcela's brother came to visit, and the kids played in the tub after they realized that the pool was outdoors and COLD!!
 Kids riding bikes in the parking garage of the condo.
Kids sleeping in the pull-out bed together.
 In the trolley in downtown Park City


At Utah Olympic Park
 Reagan got her favorite "gull" at IKEA







 Is there anything better than playing with your best friend and the water? I submit that there is not!
At the Museum of Natural Curiosity at Thanksgiving Point. This museum is like a paradise for kids. It pretty much is an entire museum of places to play for kids. But it is also really easy to lose your kids! I found a lost kid in it, and I feel like I was constantly looking for my kids! It was super fun though! The internet said that most people spend 2 1/2 hours there. We were there for like 5 hours! We thought that our girls would take naps there. Ha!
On our way home, we were able to see Whitney and Noah! It was fun to play in Salt Lake with them!